Abstract
This mixed-methods study explored self-image among people with HIV participating in an HIV cure-related study involving analytical treatment interruptions (ATIs). Using both quantitative and qualitative approaches, we described how self-image emerged across study participation, focusing on internalized stigma, emotional strengths, and the psychosocial dimensions of study participation. Data come from the SCOPE-ATI substudy (NCT00187512) of the University of California San Francisco SCOPE cohort (NCT04359186). Quantitative data were collected at three timepoints: pre-ATI (n = 15), post-ATI (n = 12), and end of the study (n = 14). We observed a general decline in self-image scores over time. However, participants maintained a moderately high agreement with statements about contributing to reducing HIV stigma through their involvement in the study. Qualitative interviews were collected pre-ATI (n = 11), during ATI (n = 8), and post-ATI (n = 6). Qualitative findings revealed two major themes shaping self-image: (1) experiencing and reconciling internalized HIV stigma and (2) self-evaluations in relation to life purpose. Many participants expressed disappointment at having to resume antiretroviral therapy, viewing it as a reminder of their HIV status and its associated stigma. Nevertheless, some found purpose and pride in their participation, motivated by altruistic contributions to improving future HIV control options. The findings highlight the emotional complexities of participating in HIV cure research and underscore the need for psychosocial support throughout ATI studies. While most participants experienced a decline in self-image, some derived meaning and empowerment from their involvement. This study suggests that addressing emotional well-being and reinforcing participants' contributions to science can enhance their experience in future research.