Abstract
In this performance-essay, T.L. Cowan introduces a geyser method for 'situation knowledges': text-based drawings for the description and study of explosive, complex, and traumatic expression. Rejecting linearity and mono-genricity, Cowan writes tangentially and propulsively on grief, necro-political white exceptionalism and grievability, shock, shame, rage, and extreme emotional un- and re-shaping. Embracing the stigma of cognitive disorderliness/being disordered, this essay experiments with crip-femme autopoetics for immoderate ways of being out-of-order as a technique-tactic both for automatic writing and self/life-writing, which pushes past feminist mess and claims the chaotic as an aesthetic and political superpower.